Thursday, January 24, 2013
Dear God,
2013 is a new year, God has officially replaced my diary HAHA, which isn't really such a bad thing kay. Another reason why I may still be posting is cause I heard someone still reads my blog *hinthint* Sooo many things have happened last year (studies aside), I went through emotional roller coasters, elation, morose, excitement, disappointment, hope and despair; I shan't say tt I hated last year ttm but it was pretty much bittersweet.
Studies aside (I'm always pushing studies aside HAHAH), I wouldn't actually say tt my life was so dull too. There're always ppl who can make me laugh, or I can be so comfortable with and I really thank God for them. I've so much to say right now but I know tt I'll regret it if I were to just spill everything out right here and right now. I'm tired of playing this game alr; we've been going in circles running a rat race.
I know I can never understand you fully and tt's the scariest part. But all I can say now is tt I knew you were trouble when you walked in, so shame on me now~ (Btw, I'm in love with this song naooo! Gahhh nomnomnom)
Just remb, life is full of fake people and when you taste it first hand, tt taste lingers with you forever.
Crossed path at 2:06 AM
Friday, October 5, 2012
My biggest mistake was falling so hard for you.
Crossed path at 6:23 AM
Sunday, August 5, 2012
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind, for me it happens all the time.
Crossed path at 5:43 AM
Friday, August 3, 2012
Dear Diary,
It's been ages since I ever visited this place, I was beginning to even think tt blogger would have alr deleted this blog LOL.
JC life has been so capricious tt sometimes you're not even sure whether to laugh or cry. Ppl come and go in this two short span years; it's so scary - thinking one instance you'll be best friends, and things can turn for the worse. Looking back at J1, we really had so many memories as a class, always gallivanting around in school, passing time at the cafe, going home after classes. Our class really tore apart at the end of last year, one by one they start breaking at the seams - nothing lasts forever.
As A levels creep near, JC would morph into one of the scariest places on earth I reckon: everyone fends for themselves (elitist mindset? :/), it's either eat or be eaten. The whole place is ridden with consultations, revision, packed libraries, students crash coursing. It's really sad how exams can really change ppl and probably force their true colours to surface :/ Nobody told me tt it was gonna be this crazy, nobody told me tt we had to kill to survive, and most importantly, nobody told me tt ppl's true colours would start to show. Looking back at our class' facebook group, it's really sad tt half of the class isn't alr with us, and the other half is really shreds and snippets of the past, the ppl have alr morph into exam-churning-machines. Perhaps I should also be the one studying now, but I couldn't help but pen these down.
Lastly, you have always been with me ever since J1, exams have changed you so much; I dun even think I know you anymore. I hope you're fine (: didn't ever think that you would always be near me when I needed you. Promise me you won't change for worldly thoughts and chases. Mayb you can't really see but I have always had your back, whether I'm physically there or otherwise. These few days I have been promising you to buy milk tea (although trivial) you seem so happy, but I never really bought it for you yet.
I really dun want to like you, cause I'm afraid to lose you. I'm sure you feel the same way too.
Crossed path at 9:32 AM
Friday, March 9, 2012
Hello Diary,
It has been donkey years since I posted or let alone visit this ancient piece of history. Reminiscing on all the previous posts and the nostalgic past make me miss the times where the world was our oyster and we had the luxury of prancing around living carefree lives.
JC is really a huge jump from Sec School; never had I felt so pressured and compelled to study before in my life. Never in my life would I have thought that I would actually pick up a book and study it whole heartily. Being in the tertiary education, it's a dog-eat-dog world in this urban concrete jungle. The quest for straight As still prevail in modern Singapore today. Sometimes I really wonder if everything we do based on the system is really relevant and beneficial. It's not within myself to be able to stomach the fact that I'll be fervently studying and constantly revising the subjects given my procrastinating nature and my lackadaisical attitude. But in order to not get eaten, I think that's the best and only solution. After witnessing first hand last year's batch of students receiving their results, I felt very compelled to work hard. But action speak louder than words; by merely just studying would probably garner you a pass grade. University admissions are sky high accepting no less than straight As. So where do those destitute individuals go? It's really very saddening to see students break down in front of your very eyes. This two short "crash-course" years will probably determine your future per se.
Breaking boundaries and overcoming obstacles are gonna be tough no doubt. Guess I just have to push myself and do sth I have never attempted or thought of doing before in my entire life: to study hard. It's now or never; you are as strong as your weakest link. By God's grace I hope I'll be able to put through this turbulent times and emerge victorious albeit adversities, then only can I look back and say that I have indeed did sth with my life.
Studies, is it all there is to life? :/
Crossed path at 11:27 PM
Sunday, August 28, 2011
" Girls aren’t going to talk to you first. It’s a girl thing. We don’t like starting the conversation because we like to feel like you want to talk to us. We like to feel like the wait was worth something. We like feeling like you’ve waited for us like we’ve waited for you. But the number one reason we hate talking first is because we hate to seem needy or clingy. That’s why we’re scared. Cause to us, being needy and obsessive just pushes guys away. And no girl wants that. "
Hmmm, you think wad I'm thinking? (:
Señorita
Crossed path at 11:35 AM
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Dear Diary,
There're times like these where you juz want to relax or at least play in peace.
Tt's when Lady Gaga's single 'Telephone' comes in handy.
Argh, I juz wanna rest & shove all my probs aside; is it tt hard?
Apparently, it's a yes. :/
I'm juz so irritated right now.
Señorita
Crossed path at 9:02 PM
