Sunday, August 5, 2012
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind, for me it happens all the time.
Crossed path at 5:43 AM
Friday, August 3, 2012
Dear Diary,
It's been ages since I ever visited this place, I was beginning to even think tt blogger would have alr deleted this blog LOL.
JC life has been so capricious tt sometimes you're not even sure whether to laugh or cry. Ppl come and go in this two short span years; it's so scary - thinking one instance you'll be best friends, and things can turn for the worse. Looking back at J1, we really had so many memories as a class, always gallivanting around in school, passing time at the cafe, going home after classes. Our class really tore apart at the end of last year, one by one they start breaking at the seams - nothing lasts forever.
As A levels creep near, JC would morph into one of the scariest places on earth I reckon: everyone fends for themselves (elitist mindset? :/), it's either eat or be eaten. The whole place is ridden with consultations, revision, packed libraries, students crash coursing. It's really sad how exams can really change ppl and probably force their true colours to surface :/ Nobody told me tt it was gonna be this crazy, nobody told me tt we had to kill to survive, and most importantly, nobody told me tt ppl's true colours would start to show. Looking back at our class' facebook group, it's really sad tt half of the class isn't alr with us, and the other half is really shreds and snippets of the past, the ppl have alr morph into exam-churning-machines. Perhaps I should also be the one studying now, but I couldn't help but pen these down.
Lastly, you have always been with me ever since J1, exams have changed you so much; I dun even think I know you anymore. I hope you're fine (: didn't ever think that you would always be near me when I needed you. Promise me you won't change for worldly thoughts and chases. Mayb you can't really see but I have always had your back, whether I'm physically there or otherwise. These few days I have been promising you to buy milk tea (although trivial) you seem so happy, but I never really bought it for you yet.
I really dun want to like you, cause I'm afraid to lose you. I'm sure you feel the same way too.
Crossed path at 9:32 AM
